Saturday, March 8, 2008

Heavy heart...

I know there may come a day when my baby can't do the things that she loves anymore. I feel like a huge clock it ticking and I need to video her 24-hours a day. I am scared that I may not remember what she was like now before she was robbed in the night by an evil villan. Will I remember her wandering the house blowing raspberries? Will I remember her high pitched squeal when her brother plays with her? Will she still be able to rub her daddy's face when his beard starts to grow out? I know this is all very premature. I know that I need to focus on the now. My rational side understands that. My heart hasn't quite figured that out yet.

3 comments:

cole+avery's gigi said...

Remember when we were told Cole { Avery's Brother} was PDD-NOS. Remember how we grieved. Remember how he had 3 words and no eye contact. AND now, think about how we often have to tell him to stop talking. Think about his singing, drawing, imagination,and humor. We never thought he'd be where he is today. Avery will find her place in life because we will do everything in our power to help her. I know you have to grieve,but we know there are things she will be able to accomplish. We will make her life as great as possible. Pappy and I love you all.

Brooklyn said...
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Brooklyn said...

No one understands those feelings as well as I do. It is tough, I won't lie but "gigi" is right - Avery will find her place! You are such an amazing mom - I know that already! With your love and strength Avery is going to do amazing things!!